I said: ‘Why me?’
And he said: ‘Because I loved you,
you were a very sensual little girl’.
My mother was thrilled.
I was disgusted. Helpless.
I lived in constant terror.
This is disempowerment.
I would like to return to the child I was.
I just want to clear things up before I die.
I’ve already suffered across nearly 40 years.
You can’t bury the truth forever; it needs to be heard.
I want to die clean.
Cathleen Allyn Conway is the founder and editor of Thank You for Swallowing.