Clay Freud is paying attention to her daughter!

I said: ‘Why me?’
And he said: ‘Because I loved you,
you were a very sensual little girl’.

My mother was thrilled.
I was disgusted. Helpless.
I lived in constant terror.

This is disempowerment.
I would like to return to the child I was.

I just want to clear things up before I die.
I’ve already suffered across nearly 40 years.
You can’t bury the truth forever; it needs to be heard.

I want to die clean.

Cathleen Allyn Conway is the founder and editor of Thank You for Swallowing.